{"id":1511,"date":"2012-04-19T04:00:28","date_gmt":"2012-04-19T11:00:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.emlynley.com\/blog\/?p=1511"},"modified":"2012-04-20T11:53:02","modified_gmt":"2012-04-20T18:53:02","slug":"anne-tenino-searches-for-her-inner-twink","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.emlynley.com\/blog\/anne-tenino-searches-for-her-inner-twink\/","title":{"rendered":"Anne Tenino Searches For Her Inner Twink"},"content":{"rendered":"


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I was really sick for a few years, which can screw with your mental health. I saw a therapist weekly to deal with what a total downer lying on the couch and\/or bed all day was, and I still see her regularly. I didn\u2019t do much of anything that two years, and I certainly didn\u2019t write.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>What, you may ask, does that have to do with my inner twink? Weeeellll, it’s kinda like this…<\/p>\n

My therapist is a Mindfulness practitioner, and she’s helped me learn a lot about myself. One of the things she shared with me is that it’s sometimes easier to understand myself as multiple disparate elements. Sometimes even multiple personalities, or fragments of personalities.<\/p>\n

Now, I’m bringing in the second thread of this little story, so bear with me. One thing I did do when I was sick was read\u2014a hell of a lot\u2014which led to buying a lot of books. About two years ago, I accidentally bought an M\/M anthology, The Ties that Bind<\/em>. This is one of the dangers of buying e-books at3:30 a.m.; that\u2019s how this little accidental M\/M purchase occurred.<\/p>\n

It was a very happy accident.<\/p>\n

I loved<\/em><\/strong> M\/M from the minute I started reading it. My husband was confused as hell, but whatever. His problem. Suddenly I wanted to write again, more than I can ever remember wanting to, and I wanted to write M\/M. I went to our gay friends and started harassing them for help with my research (the husband loved this, *snort*), and I started doing research on-line.<\/p>\n

Yeah, you know the kind of research I mean.<\/p>\n

I couldn’t figure out why I wanted to write M\/M, or why I even liked it so much. Enter my therapist. We started talking about this idea that not only do you have multiple persons or fragments inside you, some of them may not be the same gender as you are physically.<\/p>\n

Lightbulb<\/em>.<\/p>\n

I realized that all I needed to do to write M\/M was to find that male part of me. I knew, unequivocally, that he was there. I was pretty sure he’d be a smartass twink with a shitty attitude, too. So I went looking, and lo and behold, there he was! Lurking near my spinal column (it’s a good place to lean insouciantly).<\/p>\n

That guy (in his initial incarnation) was Matt Tennimore, the main protagonist in 18% Gray<\/em>, my first book and book one in the Task Force Iota series. Since then, I’ve found it pretty easy to create other male characters, mostly by tapping into what’s going on inside me. Sometimes they just sort of wander in and start bugging me. Matt will always be special, though, because he’s one of the ones that taught me about me.<\/em> I had to dig deep in my psyche to bring him to life.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>So, when people read 18% Gray<\/em> or Happy Birthday to Me<\/em>\u2014or the next book coming out in May, Turning Tricks<\/em>\u2014they’re reading stuff I basically gutted myself to write. That’s not a veiled request to “go easy on me”, it’s just the way writing is. As Hemingway said “There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”<\/p>\n

Okay, since you put up with my ramble, you can have an excerpt, now. This is a few chapters into 18% Gray<\/em>. James has ESP he isn’t quite in control of, and Matt is fully aware of it. Matt and James are on the run, camping out, and Matt has first watch.<\/p>\n

So he watches James.<\/p>\n

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Buy Link for\u00a018% Gray<\/em>:\u00a0http:\/\/www.dreamspinnerpress.com\/store\/product_info.php?products_id=2446<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Raised on a steady media diet of Monty Python, classical music and the visual arts, Anne Tenino rocked the mental health world when she was the first patient diagnosed with Compulsive Romantic Disorder. Since that day, Anne has taken on conquering the M\/M world through therapeutic writing. Finding out who those guys having sex in her head are and what to do with them has been extremely liberating.<\/p>\n

Check out what Anne\u2019s up to now by visiting her site.\u00a0http:\/\/annetenino.com<\/a><\/p>\n

Read an Excerpt from 18% Gray<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Matt glanced over at James. His forearms were bare even with the temperature dropping rapidly. He only wore a tight old-style t-shirt to sleep, and his broad shoulder was impressive even hunched over his chest in sleep.<\/p>\n

And dammit, his hair was still sexy. Matt didn\u2019t recall ever finding any other guy\u2019s hair sexy. He didn\u2019t even like curly hair. Except on James. His Basque ancestry gave him a golden skin-tone, and his hair was a few shades darker, sort of brownish golden. Even his eyes were dark brownish gold, heavy on the gold. He should appear mono-chromatic and blah, but instead he gave the appearance of a lion. He was\u2026 tawny. Especially with the hair. It was sort of like a short mane. James even moved a little like a lion. Slow and smooth. Negligently graceful.<\/p>\n

Matt\u2019s mind started to wander into areas better left alone. Like, what would it be like to be run down and caught by that lion, the back of your neck gripped in his jaws while he shoved his cock in you?<\/p>\n

\u201cFuck,\u201d Matt muttered, rubbing his hand over his face. He was half hard and having bestiality fantasies about the guy who not only persecuted him in high school, but could crack his mind like an egg and make him do stuff he didn\u2019t want to do. Or did want to do, but knew was a very bad idea.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou are a sick fuck,\u201d he told himself under his breath. He glanced back over at James. His eyes were open, watching Matt. Matt looked away after a second. Had he been projecting to him? \u201cFuck,\u201d he muttered one more time.<\/p>\n

When he looked over again, James\u2019s eyes were closed.<\/p>\n

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